Today I took the steps necessary to distance myself from someone. We’ve done much for each other and it does feel as though a hollow place has emerged in my heart from these actions. I know that it was the right choice, despite the faint sadness that echoes within.
Always choose to focus on the things you want to attract in your life, always choose to focus on that which is positive rather than negative, and picture yourself as already having the life that you want for yourself. By doing so, you will attract all that you need in order to make your dreams become a reality.
I was aware that we were both silently making those inevitable comparisons, putting our relationship in context. She is more this and less that. He is better or worse in these ways. It is human nature to do this—unless its your first relationship, which might be the very reason that your first relationship feels special and remains forever sacred. But the older you get, the more cynical you become, and the more complicated and convoluted the exercise is. You begin to realize that nothing is perfect, that there are trade-offs and sacrifices. The worst is when someone in your past trumps the person in the present, and you think to yourself: if I’d known this, then maybe I wouldn’t have let him go.
Surviving it doesn’t mean it was easy. But surviving was enough. All is well now, though looking back still hurts. Someday, I know, God will make me realize why things had to happen the way they did. And I will be thankful that I made it through.